| May. 13th, 2008 @ 12:10 pm Blessed Be! |
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Current Location: Ponders End
Now Feeling:  anxious
Now Playing: Liam Frost- The Mourners of St Pauls
Greetings! This is my first post in this journal, and I guess I should try and explain what it is about. I'm doing this as much for myself as I am for anyone else who reads this! Basically I have been studying wicca and paganism for ten years this summer. I started when I was thirteen and this August will mark my 23rd birthday. However, i have never really immersed myself into the wiccan way of life. I did once, when i was alot younger and I was naive enough to let myself "out of the broom closet" so to speak in a very public manner, for which i suffered a great deal at he hands of my peers and neighbours. Fuckers. So anyway, I decided recently that I'm going to take the plunge and start my journey on the pagan path once more. I want to meet people who are also on the path and mainly i want to use this journal to document my life and see how it changes as I delve deeper into the wiccan ways!
So, here goes!
Yesterday we went to view a house. I currently live in a rat/mouse/cockroach infested ex-turkish brothel above a dry cleaners, next door to a possible growhouse and in the noisiest, dirtiest and stress inducing place i can imagine. I live with some of my best friends and we cant wait to get the fuck out of here. So yesterday we went to view this house we found on the internet. And its PERFECT. It's in the nicest area ever, 2 mins away from my uni, i get to have a massive room compared to the tiny shoebox i currently reside in, its being completely decorated as we speak- new kitchen and new bathrooms, it has a cute little low maintenance garden (absolutely PERFECT for growing herbs) AND its really cheap. But the icing on the cake is right outside the front door....a forest. A proper little woods with lots of paths to explore and TREEEEEES. I cannot explain how much this would mean to me. GREEEEN. The lack of green at my current location has actually caused me to suffer from depression, a nervous breakdown and some rather serious physical side effects too. My family live in nottingham and i have been going home more and more often just to see some green! So anyway, we want this house. REALLY want this house. But unfortunetly, whilst the other four people have the deposit and first months rent all ready, my boyfriend and I are currently so poor we cant afford to eat. Well, I cant. He lives at home with his parents who feed him lol. And now i dont know what to do. There is nobody I can borrow the money from, my parents are struggling with money and I am in serious trouble with the banks. I was planning on going home this month for the summer and working to save money for the deposit but it has to be paid in 4 weeks. And even if i could get my share I dont know if daniel can as he too is currently unemployed. So now I'm thinking, it may be time to work a little magick, just to help clear a few obstacles from my path. I have had the worst year of my life and feel like maybe it is time for some good luck.
Its a tuesday today which is possibly not the best day, thursday would be better. But tuesday is ruled my Mars, god of war and action and that MAY be helpfull. I need this money fast, actions need to happen quickly so hopefully Mars may lend me hand. I have a small green spell candle (i prefer these to big tapers as they dont take as long to burn out so i can let it burn all the way instead of risking snuffing it out). I have my base oil and cinnamon essential oil which i can use to annoint the candle. Cinnamon is one of my favourite herbs and it is good in money spells. The moon is currently waxing which is handy, i want my wealth to grow too. I think i am going to basically attempt a simple ritual, asking the Lord and Lady to help me to gain the money i need to get this house. Nothing too complicated, an offering of coins maybe, And a small sachet to carry with me, to help overcome obstacles and encourage prosperity and security in my life.
I am also going to light a white candle for all those people who died in china yesterday. I am a little concerned, a close friend of mine is out there teaching not too far from where it occured and i havent heard from her as her computer is broken. I really hope she is ok.
Right, I am off to find some communties and people on this site, and to write this ritual for tonight!
Blessed be. xxx |